30-Day Street Performing Challenge: Day 5, 6, and 7
So these days have been strange ones to say the least. On day 5, I stayed up all night and went out the following morning to Times Square where I earned $4.33 in 2 hours, which is not a very great paycheck! And then Day 6 I didn’t go out and then Day 7 just for 5 minutes. This challenge is definitely the most fear-inducing, let me avoid this, let me procrastinate and do something else sort of thing that I’ve ever done, but I’m going to keep going. I get knocked down, but I get up again. And that feels like about all I can do.
I really want to be a performer. In the “Law of Attraction” parlance, one is supposed to say I am a performer, affirm this. But for some reason, I don’t feel there. That doesn’t feel right to me. I want to be a performer. I am a performer. Either way, I don’t know why. This is such an act of faith for me. It would be so much easier for me to just do computer work or be a writer or be involved in marketing or sales. All of these things are so much more natural for me.
So many business books tell people to “Discover Their Strengths” and sometimes I have a lot of doubt that performing is a strength of mine. But when I talk to my inner voice, it tells me that I am an amazing performer. I’m not sure why I have such a fear of letting this out and embracing it and running with it, but I’m just going to assume that if I could see my soul’s path from a multi-lifetime, multi-dimensional perspective, I would go, oh wow, DUH! No wonder this is scary for me. This happened in this lifetime and this happened in this plane and this happened when I was a little kid, etc etc etc. So I’m just viewing all of this as an experience to keep growing from and keep moving forward with. I can see such greatness in myself, such an ability to touch people and inspire people, to embrace life, to hug life, and I’m not sure why that at the same time feels so scary for me. But I’m not going to question it too much.
One small step for Brit, one small step for the universe.
Here are my videos from each day (it appears that my day 6 video didn’t post. That’s strange but everything about this challenge is strange!):
Day 5
Day 7
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